A few weeks ago we unearthed some old school books belonging to my brother and myself. They were from Primary School and we had a good chuckle reading through them (and lamenting that our handwriting was better then than it is now). Amusingly it was clear that – despite having some degree of ability with language – I was very easily bored by tasks so often lapsed into putting very little effort in!
As a child I was also clearly quite a pompous little sod, and incredibly cheeky with some banter with my then teacher – Mr Collier – that might’ve got me in trouble had he been a less understanding character! It ultimately left me disappointed as I was clearly holding back my talents – such as they were – whilst in Rich‘s books we were treated to expansive volumes of juvenile thought-trains which made very interesting reading!
Fast-forward a few weeks and I found some more writing I’d jotted as an almost-adult around the time I’d have been at University. Not actual university work (aside from a short story I had to submit for a creative writing module), just ramblings.. and my gosh, it was quite a cringeworthy exercise too. Isn’t it strange how you can change so much in your attitudes and outlooks in a relatively short space of time.
That said, we’re talking a decade or more in this instance. Decades are often used as notional benchmarks for changes in fashion, attitudes and values – so perhaps it’s not unreasonable that as a person you undergo these kinds of changes on that kind of timescale. At least I hope so, I guess that late-teen into early-twenties era is quite a life-defining period as you are bombarded with experiences.
There’s something a bit discomforting in reading through something you wrote yourself and thinking that you were actually a bit of an arse, though! Hopefully that means I’ve grown up a bit now! Perhaps it’s a blessing that older blog posts (I’ve been blogging fairly consistently for at least ten years or so) I have written are lost to the mists of time (unless you’re nifty at using Archive.org’s ‘way back when’ machine!).
And no, I’m not going to reproduce any of it online (the pic above is for illustrative purposes only, and not an excerpt of anything I produced, although the red-penned teacher feedback is very typical of the kind of comments we found within my work!).